08/02/17

I'm still not particularly happy about this set-up. This cycle of never getting happy. Why can't I just live a normal life for once. Mom always say that people have it better than I am, which is basically true. It's just that, why. Why am I not getting anything right anymore. I'm tired of expecting. Wishing the outcome would have been different. Why does it have to be the same. I don't want to live this life anymore. I'm sick and tired of it. It's never-ending. What did I do in the past life to deserve this. I cannot handle it anymore. I want to take it all back. I want to remove the pain I have ever felt. I want to stop time. Too bad I'm not some fantasy character. Time doesn't stop for me. I just have to stop my time.